you know what. fuck everyone. fuck blogger. how was this supposed to make me feel better? who the fuck have i connected with? no fucking body. my life is an endless rolling tapestry of emptiness. it may be time to admit to myself that this is more than just illusory sadness. this might be depression. i should see a doctor. i feel incredibly, and impossibly alone, especially back in my country where i feel impossible alienated. and i feel incredibly resentful towards everyone else.
i don't see the point in this fucking blog shit. maybe it's just the alcohol in me right now, but i don't think i'm going to be blogging again. so it might be wise, i apologize, to just get the fuck out from my sight now. i'm done.