My last few days at work were really bad, since I got blindsided with some kind of performance review and was told to make a cashflow + results presentation for a pipeline asset and I was like, uhm. I have no clue. I got ripped apart, and I got snarky during the reprimanding and said things I shouldn't have said. Then I got sad because they made it sound like I learned nothing in 3 months and was gonna jet off for a 5 week holiday that I didn't deserve (the only reason why I pulled this off is because the CIO and my dad are friends so he gave me the go-ahed) and I started missing S...:o(
I made amends today and apologized to the two managers (who are like my buddies) and they basically told me that I need to kind of "act" like I'm really into this shit by staying back later than my boss, and coming in earlier, or asking a shit ton of questions. I forgot the Asian way of doing things, but asking questions? That's so not possible when my boss says she's always "approachable" and there isn't any "hierarchy" but then denigrates me to the level of vermin when I don't know what's going on.
This is why I should find my own jobs instead of relying on my dad, things become way too complicated. I've learned a bit working for a local company so far, but honestly, I need to either eventually move to an MNC, or move to another country. I prefer the first option, as I actually really do like my country in many ways.
I have been wracking my brains trying to figure out where to travel to in Europe. I kind of feel like I probably should have chosen to do a US grad trip instead, in the West Coast, because it'll be much easier to decide really, plus I'll have plenty friends to visit in their hometowns. But then again...doesn't sound as exciting as my potential plans of visiting Lisbon, Sintra, Porto, and maybe even Seville, Granada, and Malaga. It's so hard planning the cheapest route, balancing bus/train/plane and everything and I'm about to just say fuck it! I also packed a bit of my suitcase last night and damn I realize S was right, I do have very boring clothes...I'm bringing a white tee and a white polo, a purple tee and a purple polo, a red tee and a red polo...Everything I have are made of only the very basic of colors with no patterns and shit. Now that I don't care about being labeled as gay I'm gonna be buying clothes that have a lil more design to them, like patterned shorts and shirts. I always tend to keep things basic, but floral stuff would be nice for the summer. Shall buy 'em when I get to Chicago/NYC/London.
I'm really excited for Lisbon's gay parties. Holy shit, Portuguese men?? Hell fucken yeah baby! Hehehe.
Holy shit. Team secretary just sent out an email to the team:
[kenn-do] is on leave from 17 June to 19 July.
[My boss] is on leave on 17 June & 24 June.
[My other boss] is on leave on 24 June.
O_O I worked 10 weeks and took 5 weeks off. Seriously, how am I supposed to survive in the real world? I have way too many firstworldproblems