Sucks for sure. Go ahead and have a final cry, it will make you feel better. It's difficult to have to face the truth but better for you in the long run. After experiencing the sorrow it would be natural for you to retreat but you will be back because you experienced love and you would want to feel find that euphoric joy again. I was looking for a song to send you -- now I'm older than you so my songs don't match your "modern" stuff, but this might reflect how you are feeling with this whole situation:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q2WHo5bGRNwSo get it out of your system, cry, get some hugs and support from your mom and friends.