Sunday, June 2, 2013

Why can't you want me like the other boys do?

GRARRRRLLLLLL DAMMIT. I wanted to take a nap at 6 pm so I'll be awake for the night out so I won't be dead at work the next day, but I overslept and woke up at 3 am. GODDAMIT I can't believe neither my mom nor my helpers woke me up for dinner! I guess I was really tired though...maybe I locked my door cuz I was watching porn before that idk can't remember.

Now I feel kinda meh cos the drag queen asked me out to the club tonight for the manhunt competition finals and I missed getting my weekly dosage of hot beefcakes (okay I did see two yesterday and I REALLY wanted to just go up and grab them pecs), and S and I were supposed to FT and he got worried again that I wasn't on my phone. I was hungry so I went down and got couple dollops of aloe vera yoghurt, crushed a Tim Tam in it (YOOO do you guys know what a Tim Tam is??? Fucken LOVE THAT SHIT, go YouTube Tim Tam Slam it's the best with Milo), put in...a scoop of protein powder and it was absolutely nasty but also kinda tasty haha.

So my new profile pic was taken just yesterday YEAYUH I'm beginning to grow a lil bit I'm happy!!! No longer scrawny and dopey like before. Still def. need to increase pecs and arms and lower abs. Btw, I post these pictures on Jack'd, I mostly just want to show people that I put in a decent amount of effort into trying to work out and look good, but I realize that it does send the message that all I want is to have a quick fuck. It isn't my main pic though, so yeah whatever. This cute half-white 21 year-old guy who's gonna be done with the army soon and I have been talking, and hopefully we'll meet up some time! I'm excited; he's real cute and he seems like a real nice sensible chap!

Also, should I do more vlogs?? But with less hand actions I guess, gotta calm them titties.

Also, maybe this song sums up why I like S:

[Before you listen to it though, I find songs like these incredibly sexy and I'm trying to expand my foreplaylist. One thing's for sure, I find girl voices incredibly sexy and it makes me feel naughty, which is weird because I imagine having sex with a girl to songs like these but obviously I'm not gonna (I'm def. gay not bi) SOOOO does anyone else have recommendations to add to my foreplaylist??]


Why can't you want me like the other boys do?
They stare at me while I stare at you
Why can't I keep you safe as my own?
One moment I have you the next you are gone
Rehearsed steps on an empty stage
That boy's got my heart in a silver cage
Why can't you want me like the other boys do?
They stare at me while I crave you

I walked into the room dripping in gold
Yeah dripping in gold
I walked into the room dripping in gold
Dripping in gold
A wave of heads did turn, or so I've been told
Or so I've been told
My heart broke when I saw you kept your gaze controlled
Oh I cannot solve

Why can't you want me like the other boys do?
They stare at me while I stare at you
Why can't I keep you safe as my own?
One moment I have you the next you are gone
Rehearsed steps on an empty stage
That boy's got my heart in a silver cage
Why can't you want me like the other boys do?
They stare at me while I crave you

It's true I crave you
Crave you
It's true I crave you

Let's just stop and think, before I lose face
Surely I can't fall, into a game of chase
Around his little finger, that boy has got me curled
I try to reach out, but he's in his own world
This boy's got my head tied in knots with all his games
I simply want him more because he looks the other way

Why can't you want me like the other boys do?
They stare at me while I stare at you
Why can't I keep you safe as my own?
One moment I have you the next you are gone
Rehearsed steps on an empty stage
That boy's got my heart in a silver cage
Why can't you want me like the other boys do?
They stare at me while I crave you

I am craving you

12 comments:

  1. I recommend Katy Perry's Peacock. I like how it is so direct in like a let's-cut-the-bullcrap-and-get-to-the-point way. Perfect for a foreplaylist!

    -jw

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    1. dude sorry but no hahahaha, first off the tempo is wayy too fast, a foreplaylist is all about making things super sexy, sultry and slow...mmmmMmmmm, like you kinda lie back hands behind your head with a half smirk enjoying the view kind of slow.

      secondly, I AINT IMPRESSING NO ONE BY PLAYING KATY PERRY??? i'm not hooking up with a 14 year old...

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    2. Haha, you actually took that crass Katy Perry song recommendation seriously? Thought it would give you a laugh.

      Okay, serious suggestions:
      Class Actress - Journal of Ardency
      Massive Attack - Paradise Circus
      Portishead - Glory box
      The XX - Angels (I know you don't really like them but whatever)
      Milo greene - Perfectly Aligned
      Melody Gargot - Baby I'm a fool
      Rumer - Slow

      -jw

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    3. dude can i just say you have a really grungy music taste, like ermahgerg u are t3h true hipster i can't catch up hahaha!!

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    4. No lah, maybe the first two songs are grungy(because I found the first song from watching porn,lol) but the rest are indie and jazzy.

      I also don't think I'm that hipter even though I may or may not be trying. haha

      -jw

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  2. Yeah, I noticed the new profile pict right away. You are so different than your typical shy, reserved asian guy. You really are cheeky.

    Can I objectify you for a second? Nice! OK, I'm done. Now lets "see" more of your personality.

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    1. LOL. i thought you've figured out that much from reading my blog. i'm an absolute hypersexual horndog, there is nothing asian about me except my love for asian food and mandarin songs.

      and, hahaha... wait till i get more shredded then sure

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  3. Not true. Well, maybe partially true that you are hypersexual. That would explain somewhat the hookups with creepy guys. You could do so much better.

    But you know you got it (hypersexuality) in your blood. How do you think there became 1.3B chinese people? Cause they breed like rabbits.

    Anyway, next time sing us a mandarin song. Even though I'm chinese too, I won't know what you are saying since I only know some Cantonese. Just as long as it's none of that screeching Beijing opera crap -- I can't stand that caterwauling.

    Excuse me now, I have to go setup my new Bose home theater system.

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    1. OK, I'm back. That took longer than I thought it would. After playing around with cable signal, I also tried to see how internet material would sound (I have a Samsung Smart TV) -- it's pretty good, not blown-away good but still better than stock speakers.

      Anyway to continue our discussion, no, I don't think you a truly are a hypersexual horndog. You already admitted you are looking for love/LTR and you value virtue in a guy. If you were only sex-obssessed, you would not be looking for these deeper qualities.

      Lots of gay guys seem to go thru a wild/slutty phase (not every one mind you but it's common enough) but eventually it gets old and not fulfilling. People want more than that -- settle down, maybe start a family. I could see you following that path and it would make your parents happy if you can continue the family tree. Being gay does not prevent that.

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    2. I mean I'm hyper sexual but I am discerning and generally rather sensible. I know that once I have a bf I'll be romping in bed all day long. Even with the first dude that I was in a secret relationship with, we made out and jerked each other off every single day without fail. I just couldn't stop kissing.

      Well haha Chinese people might be great at breeding but it's a pretty well known stereotype that Chinese people are bad in bed...the guys at least.

      And yeah I'll totally sing a mandarin song some time!

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    3. Did you already blog about your secret relationship? That would be an interesting topic. So why was it secret? How long did it last? Why did it end?

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    4. yeah i'll blog about it the next post, it isn't that interesting haha

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