i don't know i feel really weird about everything. N might go back to london by october for school if he doesn't transfer to school in HK, and my bosses at work actually really do not like me because i'm not what they really do need (basically a glorified personal assistant - fuck that shit), and i keep thinking of quitting now and moving to london, which is bad, because i seem to keep quitting whenever i don't get along with my bosses, but that's really because lady bosses are menstrual banshees. (not my fault at all...jk). but anyway,
what the fuck am i going to do in 2014 too??? fuck! and i thought 2013 was uncertain enough, and now with N things are gonna be a lot more stable and shit but no. fuck. if he moves to london, i'm not gonna stay put here...i'm really just gonna go with him i think. we both agree that it is actually going to be excruciatingly difficult for us to be apart.
one of my options is to do a master of finance in london. i fucking hate school, and i hated school in london, and i'm sure masters is a bitch to study for, but if it can get me to london to be with N, and actually allow me to also differ working for bitches for a while, maybe that's a good idea.
also, random but no idea why i called N, N. N is his middle name. lol. his first name is an exotic persian name, but N is just like, regular shit.