my fucking cunt of a boss doubled my probation period. effectively, she's telling me that everything i've done over the last three months has been utter crap.
this is the most insulting thing ever. i am a fucking graduate from one of the best schools in the states. you shitbag. you're just so fucking nitpicky and menstrual about everything. THIS IS REALLY WHY i cannot stand women bosses. they take everything so personally and hold a grudge for motherfucking forever. dude. chillax. ive been giving my 110% to get through all the goddamn stupid admin shit that honestly isnt worth my goddamn time for you guys, only to be crucified each time i make one slip-up. i must have somehow pissed them off so bad; they say i have an attitude problem when seriously, i don't.
i've really been trying so hard. and the boss is like, 'i feel like you're scared of me.' no shit sherlock, you're fucking temperamental. who the fuck tells a "team member" that "lately, the fuse has been you. you are the cause of everyone's temper."
what the fuck. fuck off. and then she's like 'i feel like you have a wall up between us - you don't want to gossip with the girls!'
no fucking shit sherlock. why the fuck would i gossip about other people in the office WITH my boss, ABOUT the other dudes in the office? and then i have to hear her whine and complain about her own boss and i'm like, yeah, wait till you hear what i have to say about you.
i really thought this time i found something that i quite liked, and that i didnt need to sell my soul to learn some stuff. so far, i've learned quite a lot for sure, but these are really one of the most anal retentive bitches i've come across.
for one: they fucking go nuts when i dont do a DOUBLE SPACE after ever period. HOW FUCKING DATED IS THAT SHIT.
two: apparently any number below 10 has to be spelled out, like nine. but anything above, like 15, has to be a number. WHAT THE FUCK ARE WE AN AD AGENCY?
three: VERBS. VERBS are apparently useless. If one of my notes start with a "Will be following up on this." APPARENTLY "will be" IS NOT ALLOWED. "Following up on this." is pre-fucking-ferred.
every thing they seem to find fault with me have been woefully stupidly small, and yet they say 'if i cannot cross this admin hurdle, then i cannot be relied on to move on to the other things.'
i'm sorry. these bitches need some slapping. i'm the only minion in the HK office for now - within this three months, i swear i am going to quit before they fire my overqualified ass. i hope they find someone else quick to replace me, because they're going to face even more manpower issues after i leave.
also, i was fucking kind/stupid enough to rope my dad in as a client - fuck that. my dad is boycotting the firm. well, as soon as i find another job that is...
so, basically. 2014. back to the drawing board. i have officially have had two 'real' jobs so far, and both have lasted/will last less than 6 months. obviously, i am having a lot of self doubts now as to whether im the problem here, but i swear, i just always feel like my talents are just not being utilized. but i really don't get what kind of stuff fits me - all i'm really good at is talking to people...
this blog has really just gone to shit now. nothing about this post is about my gay life, or anything. gah.